I'm missing you ... again

The other day i read again about you,
It was this green book i got from circuit,
Something caught me when i see that book,
It was thin, smooth matte finish, green with yellow inlay

Seing your name i grabbed it like i've never seen you before,
well, real truth is, you never saw me once, neither am i,
i'll love you in the dark like i always does
but how lovely you are that you still take me as your lover
knowing me, and us ... never saw you
you still acknowledge us...

well i'm in pain
of not being able to see you
but then again im glad you dint see me
you'll probably wept in tears if u do
let us keep that between me and Him

you truely are a gift
i read all those stuffs that i already read before
but it still astounds me
no wonder they were like you
your companion
your brotherhood
they wept when you were gone

i can imagine why ...
remember that guy you came behind him
and you hugged him cheerfully
hoping that it will make his day
knowing he is nothing to others
well he is no more than a black slave... right
but u still be there for him... as a friend
as a sunshine
and you yelled
"whose slave is this wanted to be sold"
he said "O prophet of God, you'll find me unworthy of it"

and you replied...
"You worth more in His eyes"
i cried man...
why cant u be here with me
i need you now
with me
maybe it was destined that i will never see you
in my days....
but ur still a sunshine in my heart
forever will be...
knowing you just fill me in ...
eventhough im just a speck of dirt in this much more meaningful world

you know they were afraid of you
but some of them loved you with unspoken love
and im awe of them
if only they see how cheerful you were
and pleasant you are to others

Last friday i read about you which made me miss you even more
you poked the man on his body with a stick to play around
just to cheer him up
and he said "O prophet of God, let me avenge myself"
and you said "Go ahead then ..."
and he said " well its not fair that u poked me without any clothes on"
and you unfold your shirt just to make his day
and he kisssed you on ur stomach instead

why cant it be me

it's not worth it
this world is not worth it
but this very world gave me you

im not strong enough for your legacy
i regeret every bit of it

im missing you

4 comment:

Ar-Rijal says:
at: October 26, 2009 at 3:33 AM said...


I'm also missing him. The only way to prove our love to him is to continue his path. Either strong or weak,as long as standing and breathing we can be,the path will always in front of me.

a.j. says:
at: October 26, 2009 at 6:10 AM said...

good for you ar-rijal ... im happy for you

NS says:
at: October 26, 2009 at 4:35 PM said...

lovely and such pure.

a.j. says:
at: October 26, 2009 at 6:25 PM said...

indeed he is ...