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11.05.2011

Self Repression


For years now I have been on self repressing state of self potential. Its that feeling that you can reach the clouds and do the best in life, but refrained by uncertainties and past failures. Insecurities in hardships and unsurmount loneliness. But deep inside you know that is whats right and thats what the world need, because you yourself know how it feel on this end,

In this road, the food you eat mostly in polystyrene box, sleep on a cold floor that aches up everytime its rain, worries that keeps you wake until morning and always in conflict of public opinion and interest. Everyday struggling to balance out public acceptance and life commitment.

Not a day pass by i do not regret since that day.

“Do the people think that they will be left to say, "We believe" and they will not be tried?, But We have certainly tried those before them, and Allah will surely make evident those who are truthful, and He will surely make evident the liars.
[Al-Ankabut : 2-3]


And We will surely test you with something of fear and hunger and a loss of wealth and lives and fruits, but give good tidings to the patient, [Al-Baqarah:155]



Oh You whom my soul in Your hand, I am just scared.
I am not quitter, but when you give it all, you tend to lose it all,
I know youll be here for me forever and always, but i am always scared and weak in my conviction.
Guide me in this struggle, for I am weak and You are The Most High.

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not a single day passed without regret, and I am very truly sorry.

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